DIY Wedding😍 We get it done

If you have been following me on Instagram then you know my baby girl is getting hitched.

Yep I may talk a lot of shit about men but I do believe in love as well and have taught my daughter to love abundantly. Well that bit me in the ass cause here she is getting married.

Well due to limited funds (thank God for this merger at work cause I scored some overtime or IDK hahaha), we are DIYing up over here.

I will say though even if we had money, we would still be DIYing our hearts out because it makes it special. You make not think so, but some of my best memories with my daughter is making stuff. We didn’t have cable when she was growing up, except in one apartment where it was included in the rent, but we were only able to stay there for 2 years. Well I’ve never really been a TV watching person anyways. Even when we had cable, we were at the community pool or tennis courts. We felt hella rich living there but to be honest the rent was low cause they were starting to get ran down. The neighborhood next to the apartments took a turn for some sketchy vibes so it flowed over into the apartments. That was also temporary too. Someone bought the apartment complex and redid it, the reason we got to move in, was also the reason we had to move out. After the new company bought the apartments and the lease came due, the rent went up.

We stayed for another year after that, struggling more and more each month. Then the ex~husband moved out and then of course once the lease was up, my kid and I had no choice but to move.

Something, unfortunately, I had done that quite a bit to my princess. I will say though, she gained a lot of friends along the way, so not all bad.

Anyways how did we even get there πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚and no I am not gonna edit. I have openly discussed that my stories will bounce but how else are u gonna understand if you don’t know a little background? I know it’s a good question.

Haha

Anyways back to DIY with my kiddo. Listen y’all I was both a father and mother at times, she as well played daughter and son. She loves both Mudd and water. She is both sun and moon. She had a universal, fluid spirit. She gets a lot of good from her father too. He is the hammer to our free spirits.

Him and I have been divorced for a very long time, but I see his grounded behavior in her. Which God knows that’s a good thing cause Momma in her younger days was quite the handful. I was young, raising a kid, in a chaotic world. Judge me if you wish but no one is perfect. You know more at 37 than 27. More at 27 than 20. And a lot more at 20 than you do at 18.

One thing that a young poor, hardworking woman loves doing though? Creating something grand out of very little. And if you were to ask my baby girl, momma pretty good at that.

I can’t tell you how much stuff we have made over the years. See there are benefits to being poor. When u have very little money for gifts, mom’s often buy that 5.00 craft kits from Walmart. For me, those kits were a 3 fold gift.

1. Christmas gift, and often times the boxes are big, fill the tree nicely.

2. They have the benefits of their work afterwords. Bracelets, purses, pictures, shirts, etc.

3. It gave us something to do together. I know right now she doesn’t understand how much that time meant to me but they are some of the best times ever.

I have always encouraged her in her arts, crafts or whatever creative outlet she wished. Something all parents really should do. Expressive outlets help children cope with life and God knows, if there was ever a time that children need something as an outlet cause the world done lost it’s mind.

We would turn up the radio, sing while she would color, create, build.

And I have to say when she showed me the jars she made the other day I was like well dam look at my baby with her little crafty self. πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„

We may financially struggle but we make do. And we paint our lives beautiful. I guess that is why she had no concerns with only 3 weeks to plan. Cause you know Momma got you baby 😘😘😘😘😘

Homemade is beautiful 😘😘😘

Pic by me the bouquets for the wedding and the boutonnieres. 😘😘😘

Jessica M Wilkes – No Part Time Men 😏 I Need Too Much AttentionπŸ˜‚πŸ€— (original).mp3 – SoundCloud

Listen to Jessica M Wilkes – No Part Time Men 😏 I Need Too Much AttentionπŸ˜‚πŸ€— (original).mp3 by Momma Rapper #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/jessica-m-wilkes-no-part-time

And I mean this every fiber in my soul.

Nothing irritates me more than when a man comes along and awakens a love, but isn’t available. Not in any capacity. I need attention beyond the scope of the bedroom. πŸ€”

And not just physically, emotionally, mentally.

We all have busy schedules, and I’m one of the worse πŸ€” but the difference is I am actually available, therefore attention can be given to the right one.

But I won’t settle for the wrong one ever again 😘😘

Running Game? You thought! My Relationship Revenge

Running Game

Ever had someone who you were with that thought they were running game?Β  But you had already known – and in fact were running game every since you had found out?

I am a reactive person.Β  So however you treat me – you are going to get it back.

Now I know two wrongs don’t make a right, but I consider it more of a life lesson.Β  I came into a relationship with honesty and loyalty.Β  I catch you slipping, and I am going to make you feel stupid.

I make sure that person knows too.Β  I only play along for a certain amount of time, then bam! I bust it wide open with the truth, including what I was doing.

Kind of goes like this:

Him:Β  Hey baby

Me: Heyyyy

Him:Β  Wanted to see if you could swing by tonight.

Me:Β  Oh, yea sure, but it would have to be after this date.

Him:Β  What date – what the fuck are you talking about?

Me:Β  Oh, so you know how you had went to the movies with Tammy 3 weeks ago?Β  Yea I heard that movie was pretty good, so when Jarrod asked me on a date – I figured I would watch the same one.

Him:Β  What the fuck?Β  Who is Tammy, what the fuck are you talking about.

Me:Β  sends picture

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Him:Β  Look she is just a friend.

Me:Β  Oh yea and so is Jarrod, but really hoping to make him a friend with benefits.

Him:Β  You’re a fucking bitch.

Me:Β  Yes I know – maybe next time you will think twice before you take your date to the movies where 1 of my (900) cousins works at.

Yes I know it is awful.Β  But someone needs to turn this little boys into men, and maybe they will at least think twice before next time.

We all know he still looking over his back.

HAHAHA

Boy BYE!

 

 

Jessica Wilkes ~ Ares ~ God of War – SoundCloud

Listen to Jessica Wilkes ~ Ares ~ God of War by Momma Rapper #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/jessica-wilkes-ares-god-of-war

Young Love

Yes my daughter is young and is getting married.

I even was like but but but you just a baby.

In reality though, she is an adult, and she has the right to live her life how she chooses to.Β  She has been with her fiance for quite some time, and I support her decisions.

We all just want to be free to be happy.Β  How about we support each other and leave that negative shit behind ya.

You will feel better about life.

Young Love

Self Seduction The Things I Repeat To My Self

Life is nothing more than trial and error. In each and everything we do. If you take these as learning lessons then you can find ways to make the situation better. We don’t walk without falling from time to time. We don’t stang strong without knowing what it’s like to lay weak. It is in our struggle that we learn our blessings. Life will humble you, embrace it as a learning lesson. But it order to do so, you must be willing to educate yourself through your life. Learn about yourself. Learn who you are. This comes when you begin to be true to yourself. True to your core. And remember where there is pain, there is healing. Where there is healing, there is acceptance, and where there is acceptance, there is love.

Happy Weekend Y’all
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Being Fat is Painful

My Fight

As discussed previously I have gastroparesis.Β  Today I am struggling.Β  A flare up from veggies.Β  Yes veggies.Β  Fibrous foods.Β  The struggle is real – but this is a fight I plan on beating.Β  Pushing through to the finale πŸ™‚

 

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Momma Rapper ~Reality~ Dreams Coming True for Small Town Girl on the Rise From Baking to Rapping and Women Empowerment She got it All

I know my music can be a little harsh for those who have sensitive ears (explicit)

But listen, this is my outlet.Β  I am finally free to live how I choose to, and this release of expression and emotion through music – has been the absolute best for me.

 

This is by far – my favorite song.Β  It is not only sweet, but sensual – and that ladies and gentleman makes for a beautiful song.

 

Warning:Β  Explicit

Pornographic in Nature

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