This year has been like WHOA 11/17/2019
As I am sitting here, working on my music, and updating blogs, social media, etc, I can’t help but think of all of the transitions and changes over the past year.
I just got done celebrating my first year anniversary with my music on October 17, which was like wow – it’s already been a year. You know the funny thing is – I hadn’t even realized that was the same date as Eminem’s birthday. Something I found very iconic this year as I scrolled through social media and see his birthday was on the same day I was celebrating my first year making noise. Something that gives me the feel goods – considering I’m quite the stan. Not the type of stan that watches his every move, or knows his entire book by heart – I mean dam – I’ve been writing my own book – but I know his music – his heart – because I have been listening since the beginning.
In a year I have overcome so many obstacles. Not to mention – there has been a drastic improvement with my music. You can see the transition in how I sound, but one thing has not changed – the power in my stories. Over the last year, I have won two different awards – which is crazy – cause who would have even thought?
The first was the Artist Spotlight from Bandlab back in November 2018 and the second one was this September’s #heroes #contest with That’s Some Shady Shit
Like wtf who have ever thought?
NOT ME!
I mean you can take a look of the beginning and compare it to now and you can see the improvement. It didn’t come without some blood, sweat and tears, but now… now I’m everywhere – including iHeartRadio.
That isn’t the only thing that changed drastically. I moved. I took my Florida native ass and moved it to Georgia. The start of more moves to come. This is our pit stop on a journey that I have waited a lifetime to take. I had to move – the house I was in was up for sale – and my job – well it was rough in Tampa. Something had to give – and the only thing I hadn’t tried was a change of state, in hopes to have a changed state of mind.
So I brought myself to Georgia just a few hours outside of Atlanta. I got a good job – while it isn’t what I want to do with my life – it will suffice for now. I mean we all know if I had it my way – I would stay baked, cook, clean, write some dope ass songs, and continue to just be crazy on my life shows. That is why I am the happiest. When I can get on live and just be without any regard to others opinions. I know that sounds controversial because for most – that is leaving you exposed for negativity. The thing is – online negativity can be resolved with one click of the delete button. You can’t do that in real life.
I also have this new man. Greg aka Anarchotrappitalist. Met him on 03/24/2019 (there babe you can always refer to this post if necessary – even though most of the time it’s me forgetting the date) He is amazing to me. We have had a few bumbs as everyone does – but the difference with him – we talk it out – we work it out – and that sets us apart. I am not an easy female to deal with, something a lot of guys think I try to be cute about – but just like in my music – always fact – never fiction.
I work – and not your normal – I work 45 hours kind of ish. I mean I work work. I get up at 5 to do my social media/ music related work before work – then go to work and work – then get off work and continue to work – and just recently picked up DoorDash for some extra money – so now I am work work working. Most of everyone knows that I pick up two extra shifts every other weekend on the oil line at work too. A benefit to the job I currently have. Yes, a benefit. How many jobs do you know of that will let you work 24 hours of overtime? Not many. I have worked that line every since I started and found out I could. So right now my schedule is quite tight, but you don’t get to go from poverty to prosperity without some real work behind it. Plus, I have dreams I am trying to achieve.
The first – pay off these bills.
The second – buy a house. Right now – we have a 5 people and 3 dogs in a 2 bedroom apartment that is only 850 sq feet. We make it work though. We are thankful to have a roof over our heads, something just a few months ago looked like we might not have. Our lease is a year long, but we are almost halfway through that – so really I got to push hard so we can move once our lease is up, something that doesn’t look to promising right at the moment, but if there is a will, there is a way – and I will figure it out.
The third – get to a point to where I can actually start enjoying life with my family. The most important and the main reason why – but I must accomplish 1 and 2 in order to fulfill number 3.
It will all come together. One day at a time.
I do this all for one reason – for my Baby Girl
One more thing – don’t miss out on the upcoming album “The Single Mother Shuffle”
Drop date is coming very soon.
In shock – wrote another man a love song – when my boyfriend heard it – he was in awe….. Blog Post 09/18/2019
So Greg and I entered a few contests on Bandlab – the app we use to create our music. For those that don’t know- Greg is a bassist – which was not something I knew about him until after we started dating. We are coming up on our 6 month anniversary – and it has been fantastic!!!!
Together we have dropped 4 tracks.
This last one though – “That’s Some Shady Shit” is climbing up the charts on Bandlab!!! We have two entries – the only two songs I have done this month, and one is sitting at #40 and the newest one – ALREADY AT #70.
I have a feeling this last one might surpass my other one. Even if we don’t win the contest – the fact that I even made it in the #top100 at all is amazingballs – then making it into the #top50 – even more amazingballs
Our latest track – my love song to another man!! That man just happens to be Eminem hahahahaa – yea – Momma a stan!! And what? hahahaha
Sitting at #70 !!!!
I also wrote a love song to Greg:
Currently sitting at #40 !!!!
I think we sound amazing together. His beat – my heart – together we make that Pulse beat!!!!
Our other releases:
BLOG POST 09/17/2019 Dam these changes stacking up, but I’m completely excited for this new life.

You know I’m sitting here sharing my music, in a new home, with a new boyfriend, in a new city that is in a new state with a new car – and I’m just like wow, changes for real.
I think back to where I was a year ago. Mentally, emotionally… Hell let’s take that back even further – let’s go 5, but let us dare not go back more than 10 – those pastures are paved in paths of pain.
Talk about changes. I can’t describe to someone how emotionally restricted I have felt over most of my life.
Some other things have been going on as well. A lot of self-evaluation – a lot of self-love. I mean when we strip ourselves down to only yourself – and there is no one around to feed you negativity – you start feeding yourself, little by little, bit size snacksies of positive encouragement.
Like, legit, I look in the mirror everrrydddaaayyy – and tell myself I am beautiful, I am a bad bitch, I have the power to allow fuckers to fuck with me, retain power for thyself bitccchhhh… Now take that fine ass to work. hahahahaha – (legit tho)
A few years ago – I wouldn’t even look in the mirror – and now I go live, share music, post videos, give no fucks what kind of negative bullshit comes out someone’s mouth.
Changes….
I stripped myself down to nothing but me, and my thoughts, and you know what I realized?
I’m pretty fucking awesome – and I deserve to be loved ❤ and so do you, even if that someone yourself till you find someone who can top that kind of love (and yea they out there, Gregory, hey babbbyyy)
FYI
If no one has told you today,
You are beautiful, strong, and courageous..
All the pain is just making those wings super strong for when it’s time to soar!!!
If they ain’t treating you right – tell em to get the fuck gone. You owe no – one nothing in this life. You DO NOT have to subject yourself to pain just so they can be loved.
LOVE YOURSELF
DEMAND RESPECT
LIVE IN PEACE.
My Rant Over Dating In Today’s Market Of Lazy, Lying,Denying Men
They called me a “self-styled rapper” and like I love that cause like yea
No Lack of Love Around Here – It’s A Dog’s World
My Deepest Demon for You to See
You know over the past few months if you scroll through my news feed you will notice an incredible transformation, and I’m not talking about the Weightloss I am talking about me coming out of my cacoon.
You see my entire life I held a Secret deep inside. Well that works out great till your daughter and you spend an incredible amount of time together. The older the get, the more they notice. Something you trying to hide, they eventually catch on to, cause God knows my family nosey as hell.
But you see, me rapping was almost like sinful. Not lady like. More for boys, and not a sweet southern mom from the Hills.
But that is me. So I lived this hidden life, shielding everyone from who I am, the thoughts that actually go on in my head.
But you see, this wasn’t talent in my family, there was no voice without tone, so not time was given to craft, what I realized was part of my life as a creative spirit.
I would show the world what was expected from me in the creative sense. Cakes, building, painting, drawing, decorating. I mean these are all things that people can be accepting of.
Be a white fat girl from the sticks and spit some of the shit that comes out my mouth, well you are looked at as mad, dramatic, and untamed. But really, it was my outlet. Probably why I was never happy. What made me truly happy, made people look at me like I was fucking crazy.
Well yeah know what? I am.
I am a good mom.
I am a good daughter
I am spiritual.
And yeah I have a mouth no one can control.
#letmebefreetobeme

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