Weightloss woes… The excess skin is becoming my reality.

It’s becoming real. And while I was proud for a long time that I only carried excess skin in my arms, but it is now appearing in my legs. I started to notice the pain first 🤔

Like my legs been clapping while jogging for a while but now not so much the clapping as it feels like part of my outer leg is running in front of me pulling on my back muscles. The jiggle is a different jiggle. Almost like a flat weight loosely tied around my muscle. That’s the best way I could describe it.

I won’t lie I’m a little emotional tonight. Tonight is the night I looked down and finally accepted the fact that this is part of the new me. I will accept it. To be honest I dreamt of the day. Cause this day is so much better than the past 😘 it’s just a growing process 🤗

And to be honest, not even emotional about the appearance, just concerned about having to rest the jogging.😐 Something I love doing 😔

For every problem there is a solution. I will find one. It’s just growing pains. 😘😘

Link to video of my new warrior wear. 💪

Fat to Fit in Fast Forward – Transforming Life

See the transition

Attached you will see some of the transitional workout pictures.  I am so blessed to be where I am at today with my weightloss journey.

Consistency is Key

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Jessica M Wilkes – As Promised 198 Club w_scale sound👌 (original).mp3 – SoundCloud

Guess who is on SoundCloud

Hahahaha yep me hahaha

Listen to Jessica M Wilkes – As Promised 198 Club w_scale sound👌 (original).mp3 by Momma Rapper #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/jessica-m-wilkes-as-promised

Jessica Wilkes ~ Ares ~ God of War – SoundCloud

Listen to Jessica Wilkes ~ Ares ~ God of War by Momma Rapper #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/jessica-wilkes-ares-god-of-war

Momma Rappers First Podcast (i think) – SoundCloud Poscast Discussion on Relationships

Discussion: relationships and my recent interaction with a date 😘

Relationships, love, marriage, cheating and my crazy ass self.

Listen to Momma Rappers First Podcast (i think) by Momma Rapper #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/momma-rappers-first-podcast-i

WTF Am I doing With My Life

Wtf Am I doing With my Life?

Well honestly – I have no dam idea.

The thing you have to understand is that my life for 18 years was focused on being a mother – and trying to figure out how to manage to put food on the table every night.

My life was in fast forward for 18 years – and I was in and out of bad relationships the entire time.

I am discovering who I am.  I had my daughter young – 18 – including marrying her father, then after that marriage failed – married an abusive man.  The men in my life were barely ever around.  So as far as taking care of my child, and my home – that was left on me – and shit was hard.

Right now – a lot of that stress has been lifted.  Yes, still financially struggling – but we are all.  Not having a negative voice in my ear over the past few years has allowed me the opportunity to really be able to take my ideas, and my thoughts and express them in ways I would have never been able to do before for fear of those negative words cutting my thoughts and ideas down as though they were dumb.  My insecurities are going away – and I am discovering I’m actually a badass.

And that ladies and gentlemen is amazing.

So please excuse me while I figure me out.

Currently I’m under construction.

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