Listen to Jessica M Wilkes – Warning Im Dangerous ⚠☠⚠.m4a by Momma Rapper on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/jessica-m-wilkes/jessica-m-wilkes-warning-im-1
He said she a female Eminem 😂
For those that know, I’ve been messing around with the Bandlab app on my phone since October. Some out of boredom, some out of freedom.
My daughter is grown now and moved out at 18 (1.5 years ago). (BOREDOM) She has moved back home just this past month, so not so bored at all anymore 😂
I’ve also had a lot of time to reflect on what makes me, me. Not inclusive to the fact that living a single life has given me the opportunity to actually feel whole as a person. Recovering from domestic abuse is something not easily done. Even years later. I can say this is my recovery process. I’ve always written (secretively) since I was 13. The only person that knew about that was my daughter. It was something I did for fun, keep her smiling, laughing in a world that was full of chaos, anger and abuse. Once I was single, my daughter took that opportunity to push me to be more of myself, including this off beat, fast talking, Momma Rapper hidden identity self as well. Something often teased at or put down, was something my daughter admired and loved. (Freedom)
Over the past 5 months, it really has been something kind of like wow.
The transition is like wow too.
First YouTube video:
Now I have insecurities, which we all do. So the first video is like meh 😐 but the message, it means more.
U can see the nervousness in my face, and hear it in my voice.
Nerves 😐
But with encouragement from my daughter, I’ve been putting out song after song after song.
Now mind you 😁 these are recorded from my bathroom and from my broke ass metro phone.
Again people, I’m a mom, and who TF has 400 to 800 dollars to hit a studio. And let’s be honest, I’ve had no formal training, I do not read music, and barely know what people are even talking about when it comes to studio stuff. 😁
But I can put words together and I can say them pretty fast. 😁
And it’s getting better over time.
My most recent video :
I have some news on the new one tho 😂
It’s going to studio. I found a friend through a mutual friend that has a studio and is willing to work with me on the cost to record. Drastically too 😁
He knows I’m broke and trying to buy a house. Plus again, I don’t make any money at this, so to invest money in it, isn’t really conducive to my lifestyle ATM.
So after posting “Prodigy” I get this comment

Ha, the fact that he is my favorite artist of all time, y’all know that made my day.
He helped me get through life through his music 🙏 so for someone to make that comparison, which I know I am nothing like him, it still made my day.
I really hope you enjoy “Prodigy” which will be coming soon as soon as I find a ride to Sumter 😂😎😂 (can’t drive the scooter that far LMFAO)
Chocolate and Cheese??? 💁 It’s a must try 🙆😏😋
I know, here I come with more weird shit, but listen, it’s a thing, and if it’s not it should be. 😄
I often get bored with the monotony of the same meals and basic snacks, especially when party planning it event planning.
This is a very beautiful snack 😍 but also can be cut differently for shapes and obviously chocolate can be molded into variety of shapes.
Point being is the taste 😁
The chocolate does over power the cheese, so less is more 😁
I also found that white chocolate is better with a sharp white cheddar.
It is a must try 😁

The Top 20 Preferred Music Artists of 2019
With this year full under way – it has come to my attention that there are artists around the world that are incredibly talented – but also might not have the exposure they deserve. As a whole – there are few that listen to underground music – but the thing is – that is exactly how artists are found. As most know – back in October I started on Bandlab. Something to fill my time – since my daughter moved out the year before. The thing with music – is it encompasses our lives. We never really realized it so much before – but my daughter (who is grown) grew up in an environment in which we just really didn’t watch television. I had my daughter young, and the life that we were living at the time – well let’s just say – I didn’t want her watching television show after television show with these kids who lived with both their parents – and didn’t have to hide in their rooms when step dad came home angry. Somehow Eminem’s lyrics made more sense to our life than “Full House”. To this day – we still don’t really watch television, still don’t have cable either. We listen to music – jam out – and just spend time together. It is our escape. Now while our life is much different now – emotions can be felt through music – and you can speak through your music – without even saying a word (listen to some instrumentals only – you will understand).
Well over the past few months – I have built quite the network of incredibly talented friends. I joined a couple of groups – networked a little – and started sharing music for free on a separate blog page. It is a blog page that is dedicated to artists only. I have not, and will not post any of my own personal music to the page. It is artist support in the truest form. No piggy backing off of other’s – just true artist support.
To be honest – I do this because I enjoy listening to music – the creative processes one goes through – the variation in music – just all of it. Each one different – but each one special in it’s own right. For most, their song tells a story – some deeper than others – but in some way – that song is relative to the artist – so pay attention to the words, not just the beat. These artists are telling you a story – listen to them – the variations – the work they put into their tracks – listen for the details – you might discover something a little more meaningful than some of the mainstream music.
Below you will find 20 of my favorite artists and my favorite track from their playlists. I will say, I have listened to thousands of songs over the past few months – hundreds of artists – HUNDREDS – this top 20 not only goes to the song – the beat – but also creativity – and artist likability. I do not support or promote asshole artists that do not see music as an expression of one’s emotions and often times is a person’s healing place.
Momma’s #1 Artist and Track: Artist: Wun Love (Liftd Music) Track: “Change You”. There are so many reasons I love this song. In the song he discusses not letting the music world “Change You” – Wun Love – he plans on changing the music world – and by the sounds of his music – he is going to do just that.
Once talking to Wun Love – I have to say he has a great back story – and I feel a connection with his mom – even though I have never met either one of them – and our interaction has only been on social media.
A little about Wun Love and Liftd Music: Liftd was raised by a single mother and lived with his grandparents and 3 brothers growing up. Music has always been a passion to him. Mainly involved in sports until after high-school, Liftd started writing songs junior year after being inspired by acts such as Lil’ Wayne, Drake, Dr.Dre, Scott Storch, etc…
After a few rough years battling with substance abuse and self-inflicted depression, Liftd decided to dedicate his life and career to making music which helped him through some pivotal points of his life.
Liftd believes music has the power to change the world and has since vowed to use his talents to create positive messages in his music.
Liftd Music : Artist, Producer, Sound Engineer
I will continue to watch him rise – as I know – once this song goes mainstream – his word will get Liftd.
#2 goes to: Manny Gamboa with “Human Nature” – Now, when I first listened to this track – I was intriqued – not only is the video quality on point – but the lyrics are too. It is a passionate song too – and as a woman – this is what ALL women want – “fall for a lover boy who be in the street” – ha – send him my way. I mean after all – it is “Human Nature” – and wait till you hear it pop off @ 2:20 – he gets at it – and y’all know Momma like that.
A little about Manny aka Emanuel X. He is an independent rap artist based in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. I started because I felt like the music I listened to wasn’t enough for me. I felt like people weren’t speaking about the things I was going through so I spoke for myself and it became therapeutic and evolved from there. What makes me, me, is that I have a distinct signature sound that listeners can pick up on right off the bat. (HE ISN’T PLAYING ON THAT)
#3 goes to FAT MEEZY aka Michael Carey with “July 4th”. Now I’m going to be blunt here – he took me by surprise with his track – and actually he bumped his way up the list primarily because his track – “July 4th” is about his daughter, and let me tell you something – it is an amazing track. He hit me with this one – he probably knows that too considering the whole “Momma Rapper”. Plus look how freaking adorable her cheeks are – hahahaha. But seriously – this song is amazing – and lyrically on point – and if are you a parent – and this song doesn’t make your heart melt – well then you suck – cause it is beautifully done. I know Emma is going to be very proud of her father some day – and will always have this track to come back to.
A little about Fat Meezy:
FAT MEEZY is a local artist that was born in New Haven, Connecticut.
He was a troubled child who spent years in and out of therapy. He always felt out of touch with the rest of the world. When nobody listened to his cries for help he turned to music as a way to vent his aggression and emotions. In 2003 at the age of 13 he wrote his first song called “Empty Inside” which described the emotions he went through during his first real heartbreak. Over the years he continued to use music as a way to let out the built up anger. There were times he almost quit and wanted to give up. Fat Meezy is known for vanishing within the blink of an eye. After a few years pasted this encouraged his return with the song called “Missing In Action” and “Through The Night”. He Hosted a YouTube series called “Direct From Fat Mikes Crib” which highlighted other Connecticut artist such as “ILL, New England Nice, Continuous Intelligence, Raiza Rapz” And more. He was featured on “City to the Styx Vol 1” and “City to the Styx Vol 2” mix tapes. He also made an appearance on the “Street Confinement Mix tape” hosted by “Dj Wydow”. At the age of 17, Fat Meezy and his hype man rented a U-Haul and packed it with over 30 people to support the show where he opened up “Bone Thugs and Harmony”. This was a big success to him to open for this legendary group in the music industry. His first album released was in 2013 called “Monster In The Making” He took some time off for personal reasons and came back 2018 with his album called “Broken Home” which touches on topics from his childhood, current experiences, religious beliefs and his everlasting battle with depression. July 4th 2017 his daughter was born and changed his life for the better. He decided its time to be a role model and show his daughter to never give up and follow her dreams. He doesn’t expect to make it big but he does expect to leave his daughter a moral to follow. He’s currently working on his next album that is just almost finished titled “The Mumble Games” and touches on the concept of the real music and shows his anger towards this new music that’s being aired on radio waves. He’s also working on 3 more projects. A EP by Fat Meezy with “Mike Martinez” who will be doing 100 percent of the production. A Collaboration album that will showcase all of the collaborations he’s done over the years and of course another solo album. Fat Meezy is currently looking into setting up shows all up and down the east coast. He’s building his fan base we speak so come and be a part of the movement.
http://www.soundcloud.com/fatmeezyct
http://www.twitter.com/fatmeezy203
#4 is Dewight DMoney Alexander and his track “My Life” . Now I am going to be blunt here too – y’all know how Momma is. DMoney and I worked on a track together – and it meant a lot to me – for a variety of reasons. One we all know Momma’s style is different (part of what makes it good) – but it is so different – that when I first started out with my music – it was rare to find another artist that was interested in my music, or they just didn’t know how to jump on my songs – because they are lyrically different. But anyways – Dewight is one of the firsts that I worked with on BandLab. I completed “Man on a Mission” and made it available to fork (available for others to hop on open verses). Now Dewight jumps on the second verse – and does some back drop throughout my parts – which made the song pop. I will post both links – and while I love what he did on “Man on a Mission” – Dewight is a great rapper solo – and stand alone – he is fire too. His track “My Life” will give you a quick version of his life – and let me tell you – he is going places. He is creative – he has a great voice – and his freestyle is on point.
https://www.bandlab.com/dmoneyniro/my-life-7e349?revId=cd35f12d-860d-e911-9f2a-00155d77cb96
#5 YoungFolk10k with “Right Now” – This Jacksonville rapper is already there – and his music is already circulating – but I still have to give him a shout because – his music is popping. His cinematography skills are on point – and his lyrical skills are without a doubt on point. Creative stance is strong – just overall a great rapper – but trust – he already knows this – even if the rest of Florida sleeping on him (don’t worry Young – they sleeping on me too – hahaha)
YoungFolk10k is a driven up-and-comer out of Jacksonville, Florida who prides himself in balancing both an insatiable lust for life and a stern self-imposed code of caution. His latest single, “6IX RULES,” and its accompanying video delve deep into both of these facets of his personality. The song, as its title suggests, centers around YoungFolk’s six rules for success, both personal and fiscal, in an often cynical and callous world. These simple, yet crucial commandments are listed in the song’s earworm of a chorus and are elaborated on further through the rest of its verses. The video, shot and produced by YoungFolk through KickAddicks, accents YoungFolk’s fun-loving side. The three minute video takes place during a high school basketball game-turned-full blown function. The premise is simple enough but what really makes the whole affair shine is the cast- which includes YoungFolk himself. The energy and enthusiasm among them is near electric and the predominantly improvised skits which intercut the video throughout are both equal parts charming and laugh-out-loud hilarious. While, setting-wise, the video acts on a smaller and more intimate scale, its cast along with its visually striking red and blue color palette make it an exceptionally memorable viewing experience. YoungFolk10k’s upbringing was not an easy one and his story of hardship makes his sense of world-weariness all the more reasonable. Conversely, however, it also makes his sense of artistic drive extremely admirable. Growing up in an abusive household in Clarksville, Tennessee, YoungFolk was exposed to the uglier side of human nature from a young age. This understandably created a sense of angst and disenchantment in his heart. Despite this, YoungFolk move to Florida later in his teen years, made a personal vow to never act on the violent impulses he witnessed in his develipmental years, and instead harnessed this sense of ire to fuel his artistic expression. Fortunately his hard work and ambition have paid off tremendously. The video for “6ix Rules” is available to watch now on Youtube and his music is available to stream on Spotify and Apple Music.
#6 Trusoul Davis with “Open Your Heart” – I have to say something here, if you are happily single – YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WANT TO PLAY HIS MUSIC – cause HELL THIS STUFF HAS EVEN ME ALMOST CONTEMPLATING a relationship – LMAO. While listening to his music – you’re gonna wanna have your significant other close. He definitely has that lay you down and get ravished by your spouse kind of music. I even told him – “You make me almost want a man” – hahahaha – true shit though. I haven’t not loved everything I have listened to by him.
A little about TruSoul: He is an r&b artist hailing from Cleveland, Ohio. Raised on the east side of Cleveland’s Morris Black housing projects, he discovered a love for music at a young age, singing in local choirs in his youth. In his latter years, he began to take music more seriously. Honing in on his gifts, Soul went on to release multiple singles en route to his first major release “The Tru Experience” to widespread local & international (UK) acclaim. After a short promotional tour that included various radio station visits & shows such as “The FreeThinkers Tour”, “Indie Acoustic Soul Live” Who Run IT CAJOKIA MUSIC CONFERENCE & “Song Wars 5” to name a few, TruSoul looks to make an impact in the r&b scene by “Bringing real R&B back” He has also taking on acting as a second career move and has been in numerous plays and movies around the greater Cleveland area.
To contact Trusoul Davis and stay updated visit his web http://www.therealtrusoul.com
Music is also available on all digital retailers
And request on SiriusXM HEART&SOUL And on radio one cleveland 93.1 wzak
Contact on all social media @trusouldavis
#7 Keenan Stewart Comeau AKA FLOWFLYIR with “Distant Land” – I have so much gratitude for this artist here. Like A LOOOTTT. I would like to begin to express my appreciation at this point and explain some back story to the friendship that developed with Riy. Riy – I would like like to say to you and Brandon Gonzales – I appreciate your open – minded and understanding of my spoken word rap – and being almost like big brothers coming to my defense on, actually more than one occasion. My music is different – and despite the different – unmastered – raw music – they have always been supportive – and that – I will always carry with me. It is hard to show emotion – especially emotion on a different spectrum – and something so different – that it is almost foreign to a lot of people – but they have been receptive – often offering assistance – and just having a complete respect for art – and creative expression – and that, strangely enough – has been hard to find among a lot of other artists. I have received quite a bit of negative kick back from polished artists. Often because they didn’t know my back story – or the fact that my tracks are recorded from my shitty ass metro phone, because they never took the time to actually get to know me. Most cast judgement before even listening to the words, but NOT Riy and Brandon. They have been true friends in this process – and I am forever grateful. Riy also runs multiple support pages – such as Time To Get Heard (TTGH) and FLOWFLYIR . These groups are a great place for artist connections. Thank you again Riy and Brandon for your support.
A little about the man himself from himself: I am FLOWFLYIR (FLYIR) an indie music artist, covering several styles of music including rap, Hip-Hop, Spoken Word and others. Poetry opened the door for me to start my musical journey, which sparked my passion to help others. I write motivational songs about bullying, global change, personal experience and unique themes. Plus, all my music is non-explicit. I started rapping when I was 16 and I learned from a guy in my High school. His name was David Falls and he was in grade 12 at the time. I rapped battled him twice and I learned from rap battling him how to rap. After that, I started my own YouTube channel on YouTube on November 3, 2012. Then I started freestyling on other people’s beats that were my favorite rap songs and I made remixes or used someone else’s beat to make my own song like the We Ain’t Stopping Now, which at the time I was using Michael Wells beat and not my own. He told me about this program that he used called MAGIX MUSIC MAKER. Then I looked up the program online, my mom bought it and I started making beats. I wrote my own songs more at age 17 and with that program, I began to make beats by using the sound pool and the loops that were available for me to use in the program. I continued to do this, I also started rapping because I was bullied most of my school year and if I did not know how to deal with my stress I was thinking about not going to school, but rap became my stress reliever and It also became a way for me to express how I felt.
I still Rap, make beats, I just started mixing and mastering. I created my own group we were called MUS!C !S FROM TH€ H€ART or M!FTH. We were called TGH or TO GET HEARD. We Were independent, signed to ourselves and no one else. I am still in a duet with my buddy YOUNG KING HERO, Were called MASSIVE FLOW RAPPERS and together were a team. I also wrote my rough draft of my first song Rap all day and Rap all Night at age 16 and wrote down my first freestyle that I called We Ain’t Stopping Now.
At the same age and had the song on my YouTube channel, but since then I deleted that song and I remade it into one song. The original is on my page on SoundCloud the remix is also out and I want to thank bedezetbeatsproduction for the use of the beat. I also took down my YouTube channel when the new update came. Then I made a new one, which right now has a few videos. I am waiting to get the right video equipment before I make really good music videos. When I started I used my laptop’s webcam and that was all right, but now I want to upgrade. I will also be starting to make my own beats from scratch using my Akai music mixer/ keyboard. I will still be using Magix Music Maker 2013 as well. I will make my own loops using the loop maker and moved on to Mixcraft 7. I am 22 now and I have a rap flow like GUCCI MANE and when I started rapping people said I was going to be the next Eminem. My main rap name is FLOWFLYIR, My producing name was FLOWFLYIRBEATS or F-FLYIRBEATS. I am influenced by Busta Rhymes to keep going with my music. I am influenced by a rap legend his name was Tupac and he rapped mostly about his own life. My favourite rapper is Busta Rhymes, I also like EMINEM, Gucci Mane, Tupac and many more.
Time To Get Heard promo and radio were created By FLOWFLYIR on Thursday, December 3, 2015. “Hey, we all want to be heard. I decided to help people get heard by creating this page for my facebook group TTGH and SoundCloud group Time To Get Heard Support. This idea sprung from most of my followers who support my music, PACMAN & CFM. Inspired & Influenced By PACMAN, CFM & Big Typhoon plus YounG Ceaser. Now called Flyir Radio & Podcast (FRP) (2017 – 2019).
Check out my music in the links below. Working on my first album Inner Thoughts. I am also renovating my studio to improve my quality (2018). The Renovations of my studio are finished and I got a lot of new music on the way. So, stay tuned (Nov. 2, 2018).
#8 Sean Callahan with “Fresh Out of Coma” – I met Sean through Bandlab – and he is one of my biggest supporters. His music is more of a grunge rap – which I dig. Lyrically, he discusses his life – and the obstacles he has over come along the way, and his recovery process during the time. Sean has an interesting back story too. I often find his stories incredibly entertaining – and he is genuine in his responsiveness to other artists.
Born in Long Branch, hockey player cousin Tara Lipinskii we ran ice but she won gold. Sean has had a difficult life – but plans on rebuilding through his music. In trouble with the law – battling with addiction – but he puts it into his music – and continues to become stronger every day.
#9 Anthony “Ace Cutty” Clark featured in “Crip Drip” by Tempa 2X – I met Ace on Facebook through one of the rap and hip hop groups. His lyrical talent shines through on this feature.
A little about Anthony “Ace Cutty” Clark – He was born in Chicago, Illinois, December 30th 1991 but was moved to San Diego, C.A. shortly after. He started writing lyrics at the age of 9 and by the age of 15 was recording with his first rap group “HooD $taR ProduCtionz” in Las Vegas, N.V.. Since then, he has traveled all across the We$t Coa$t and North West releasing mix tape after mix tape building a strong fan base stretching across all genres of music, social classes, and ethnic groups of people. Currently he is focused on continuing to build up his fan base, networking and of course, his highly anticipated debut album, “Ace Cutty: Forever”.
#10 S Barano Swanson with “She Say”
A little about S Barano from himself: Well I’m from Dayton Ohio born and raised . Grew up a fan of all kinds of music from James brown and Michael Jackson to 2pac,jayz, & Jadakiss. I started doing poetry for teachers in middle school then progress into rapping. About 4 years ago I started releasing music on YouTube, SoundCloud, and reverberation. Now I have music available on all platform including Spotify,iTunes, apple music ext. I just try to make music that people can relate to. I speak on my struggle with family, fake friends, and being real.
11. Walter Green with “Fakes Freestyle” – another incredibly supportive artist. I appreciate all of your support Walter. Walter has been incredible since I met him on Bandlab. Walter is one of the most supportive and engaged of all of the people on my social media – he rocks.
A little about the Jacksonville, NC rapper: I started rapping when I was a teenager just to really have a way to express myself along with having a love for music and wanting to make a career out of it.
What makes me me is seeing what’s going on around the world by watching the news or by going out somewhere that’s how I get my inspiration to write music I rap about real life situations I always have messages in my music I also gain inspiration by having thoughts to myself about a topic that I’m into. Went to Northside High School Studied at Coastal Carolina Community College.
#12 Mrflava Colin Greenwood with “Rumours”
Mr. Flava, born Colin Alrick Greenwood; hails from Islington, in the parish of St. Mary, Jamaica. He gained his education at Water Valley Primary and Islington Secondary School. From very early years, he was interested in music and his refined palette acquired an urgent passion for reggae. From a young age he would perform to family and friends and even at local community shows.
After leaving school, Mr. Flava realized that the best place for a performing artist to gain recognition was in Kingston, so, he took a chance and relocated to Fletcher’s Land, in Kingston. There, he started visiting studios and began to develop his already-nurtured skills further. His main inspiration came a little later on, from the blazing Jamaican reggae Star, Mad Cobra, who he had the fortune of meeting when he worked in his profession as a Barber at a Beautician Salon, owned by Mad Cobra’s wife. The Star often visited the salon and would give Mr. Flava pointers and some guidance in the art.
It was in Fletcher’s Land, that Mr. Flava once again found himself upon the stage, but this time, he was performing alongside many famous Jamaican reggae artistes in events such as the annual shows “West Kingston Jamboree” held in the Tivoli Gardens and the “Fletcher’s Land Jamboree” held in it’s own territory. He also performed at both the annual shows the “Allman Town Jamboree” and the “St. Mary Mi Come From”, in their perspective parishes along with the well-known “Champions In Action” show.
Mr. Flava has performed at many charity events in Jamaica and prolifically shared the stage with almost every top artiste in the reggae/dancehall industryMr. Flava, born Colin Alrick Greenwood; hails from Islington, in the parish of St. Mary, Jamaica. He gained his education at Water Valley Primary and Islington Secondary School. From very early years, he was interested in music and his refined palette acquired an urgent passion for reggae. From a young age he would perform to family and friends and even at local community shows.
13. Clint Mitchell in the “Shoals”
A little about Clint and his group The Shoals which consists of two brothers Clint & Dakota Mitchell and their cousin Tracy Lail.
From Clint: We are from Granite Falls North Carolina. We have always played music together but never anything very serious. In December 2017 we decided to start recording everything and we soon discovered that we should share it with the world. The feedback and responses were beyond amazing, and it really inspired us to better our sound and move forward. We never looked back. Clint is the Lead Guitar/Rythm Bass and Vocals. Tracy plays Lead Bass/Rythm Guitar. Dakota is the drummer. We play Improvised Heavy Rock music. Our inspirations range from Black Sabbath, Clutch, Nirvana, Manson, Slipknot, and beyond. We are constantly looking to upgrade and better our sound, and look forward to what the future has in store for us.The Shoals consist of two brothers Clint & Dakota Mitchell and their cousin Tracy Lail. We are from Granite Falls North Carolina. We have always played music together but never anything very serious. In December 2017 we decided to start recording everything and we soon discovered that we should share it with the world. The feedback and responses were beyond amazing, and it really inspired us to better our sound and move forward. We never looked back. Clint is the Lead Guitar/Rythm Bass and Vocals. Tracy plays Lead Bass/Rythm Guitar. Dakota is the drummer. We play Improvised Heavy Rock music. Our inspirations range from Black Sabbath, Clutch, Nirvana, Manson, Slipknot, and beyond. We are constantly looking to upgrade and better our sound, and look forward to what the future has in store for .
14. Max Turnish with “Lost” – I have a little history with this artist. For those that don’t know Max is the one that produced “Wear Me Down” – the sexiest track I have recorded to date. Max is also one of those believers in me – and those are, like I said, few and far between in the music industry. It only took a day or two to lay down that track – but he is also a very talented artist himself, as shown in this track below.
A little about Max from Max: Well I started rapping in Brooklyn Ny. That’s also where I’m from.I really just did it for fun during my elementary years 9-11 it was when I reached middle school I started working on my Lyricist skills I wrote many songs and lost many of my notebooks I used to write them it wasn’t till recently of early 2018 till I started recording I recently gained some fan base I also give advice when I can to individuals who’s just starting out. Dgx stands for Dreams Gone eXtreme
15. Xkreamin J Haukinx with “The Beautiful People”
Xkreamin J R.u.c.k.i.s.s is an alternative hip hop Artists/CEO/A&R from Detroit Michigan who has over 100.000 stream’s and 15.000
copies sold of released 5 projects in the last two years this is R.u.c.k. volume 2. the Mixtape started more buzz after leaving his label due to creative problems within the company after becoming an A&R for record union he started to assembling the company the Moonies
16. Masta Mind AKA Thabo Ntini in “I Am”
17. Shakur Phamousz Clark in “Elevate the Game”
18. Troy Bantum in 💰PAPER $TACCZ💵
19.Andrew Martinez with “Who Made You Gang”
20. Dario da Rapper in “Dario”
http://mp3banger.com/music-dario-otelenu-prod-by-endeetone/
I wanna say thank you to all of the artists that I have come across during the last 3.5 months – it has been incredible. I will continue to share and listen to music – so always watch for those Facebook posts about blog blasts.
And stay tuned for additional underground music so that you can be one of the first to hear rising artists lyrical tales.
Yes I am Crazy
And probably why I can’t get a man – and I am okay with that.
The only man I want is one that can handle me being me.
Any less than that would be destructive to all that is me.

The Hidden Truth about My Mental Illness & How I Am Healing
The Hidden Truth about My Mental Illness & How I Am Healing Relationship Redemption Round
Mental illness is something few wish to discuss, especially me considering in my younger years I would be incredibly private about my flaws. I mean who isn’t. I guess I am at peace or in recovery stage so I am feeling up to discuss it. I discussed how my life was in fast forward in a previous post. There was so much that happened in my second marriage that I do not care to dwell or discuss, but there are a few things that I would like to, especially considering we are about to go into Domestic Violence Awareness Month. And I am not going to bash or say bad things about my ex husband, because, he as well has his own mental illness he copes with. I do not excuse his behavior, but over the years – I started to understand why he was the way he was, and let’s be honest, I, as well have done some crazy ass shit so like I get it.
Sometimes life itself bears so much weight on our shoulders to where we feel like we are going to explode, well I felt that for a very very long time. A ticking time bomb if you will. All that pressure, being a wife, a mother, an employee, a college student, the ceo, cfo, maid and the janitor of your own home. The taxi driver, the birthday party make it happen with no money budget boss, school clothes getting, grocery getting, bill paying boss. I mean we freaking do it all right, like when do we breathe? And don’t get it twisted, even with the in/out husband – I rarely had help with bills, he was more of the take you out to dinner once a week – and the rest went on where ever he was the night before. But again he had a flex schedule so he was able to take the kid to school. Teamwork right?
So in the midst of all of that when do we breathe? When do we have time to actually deal with any type of emotion or thought? Well we don’t because we don’t have time and we forget to. You just take your licks, and you keep going, even though your heart feels like it is going to pop out of your chest before you even got your first cup of coffee in or the child to school, because you are running 15 minutes behind, and you promised your child you would braid her hair, and it’s raining, so traffic is going to suck, and it’s meeting day, and you already feel out of your league kind of morning, but you can’t breathe cause you got’s to go. So you push through, to the school, to your job, to the school, to the rec center, go grab groceries while she is at practice, pick her up, take her home, homework, shower, practice, read, SNUGGLES. Sleep. Up. Repeat. This is our life. This is what we do. The weekends consist of repair the undone from the week. Laundry, the dishes scattered, scrub house down, mop on Saturday. Sunday comes and it is prep work for the week. Weekly groceries, rest of laundry you failed to do on Saturday because you got to watching a movie with bug because you as well, love Disney, so SNUGGGGLLLLESSSS. Then it’s lunch prep, clothes prep, spend some time, and whatever else you have to do to prep for the week, and then catch another movie with bug cause SUNDAY SNUGGGLLLESSSS. YES I USE THAT HASHTAG ON IG FREQUENT, I STILL GET SNUGGLES FROM HER FROM TIME TO TIME WHEN SHE COMES AND VISITS. If your kids aren’t grown yet – you might not understand, but I do suggest daily snuggles. Lots of hugs, lots of jokes, and lots of ice cream, those things make kids happy, let your kids be happy – you will find it makes you happy. FYI We still do this. Yea say what you want cause we don’ts care! Come Saturday I get to see her and my momma, and Imma get me some snuggles from both, especially since my momma wanted to go to the emergency room last weekend via ambulance. (I did warn you about this bouncy story stuff, just keep up – I know you can do it) BOTTOM LINE SPEND TIME WITH YOUR KIDS GET OFF YOUR PHONES IPOD IPAD TABLET cause you will have plenty of time for that when they decide to be grown and leave you all alone with just the dog for company. YES I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. That is how I find the time now to do all this stuff and work. I miss having her here. A little more into that – we don’t really watch tv. We always did arts/ crafts/ dancing/ singing. We only watched movies. We didn’t have cable, so naturally. So at night time we would typically watch a movie maybe, sometimes none, just depended on what we were doing, but most of the time we were doing things like riding bikes, or hiking in the woods, have You Say When, etc. Like typical things, we spent time together. To be honest for as poor as we were, she did get to experience a lot, and part of that was thanks to my ex husbands family. Yea our marriage was a complete disaster, but I did love his family. They came with trips to condos, and family outings, and it was about the only times that my husband and I could somewhat maintain a conversation without wanting to kill each other. We are completely volatile toward each other. So in these moments that we are doing family things, my daughter had a family, so you just dealt.
The words eventually don’t even hurt, you become numb, it’s just whatever at a point, because God knows it always progresses. One minute it’s like you crying over a text, then a busted lip, then being in the hospital – you see progressive – and it happens like overnight. You barely have time to deal with the one thing they do, before bam there is something worse, so now you are saying well the last thing wasn’t that bad – let’s deal with this – then bam – a new something worse. Never any time to even really think about what is going on – to even realize like HEY STUPID DO YOU SEE WHAT YOU GOING THROUGH HELLLOOOO. Nah cause you ain’t got time to hear that shit – you got to get the kid to the doctor’s and get to work, then you have class, and you only had 3 hours of sleep cause you was up arguing cause you mad, and he gonna change, and you feel like this time he done messed up so bad he had no choice but to change. Yea girl how did that work out? Ha, that is that honeymoon phase all hear about.
So anyways. Let’s get back to mental illness. So with dealing with all of that – that fast paced chest – doctor’s call that anxiety. Ha! Ya, since 1981. My overachieving but never accomplishing anything ass. Never feeling good enough, creates this anxiousness within myself, and that ladies and gentleman gets worse when you have a negative Nancy in your ear telling you all the reasons why you aren’t good enough. Using physical attributes to shut down any type of positivity. Come out the room looking hella cute – just not his kind of hella cute. I would try to show him the goods, and he would be like – have you noticed that your thighs have even more dimples. Wow thanks ass.
So yea – you get torn down, and you just say screw it this is life, and you just let go – and let it become you. This is your life, you make the best of it, and you are married, and through thick or thin right, and nah screw that. If it is bad, and violent – gtfo NOW.
Now another thing you will have to also understand – he often disappeared. He chose to live the free life of come and go as you please – there are lots of bars along the way, and we often split, multiple times, A YEAR. The splits would get longer in between – but often would end up back because like family, and I was out there alone, I was getting close to losing my job because place wouldn’t open till 630, had to be there at 8, traffic would also be just like whoa, and you don’t leave the school till close to 7 by the time they open the gate, turn the lights on, open the doors, walk your kid to the far back of the school, cause that is where the library is, and walk back to your car. Your starting to run late – and your boss has already talked to you – and your husband works construction – so he can do whatever he wants really – he knew his shit on the job – so he always had some play on his schedule – and for a time even ran his own little thing. And I would also like to add – although him and I were not good – he did an okay job playing dad from time to time. That was early morning during the weekdays when he had to limit his hangout times because of work hahaha. He would often do things with her – and they often had a great time together. I mean he is an ass – but he did love her.
So anyways, this anxiety – this pressure, this is my illness. I still have it to this day, but not near as bad as it used to be. You see all the pressure from life, then having the pressure within the home. The fear of expression, whether it be with words, art, creativity, ideas, thoughts, that is what caused my mental illness to be so bad.
Not only are some people programmed to be incredibly critical – society as a whole – we are critical. We often feel compressed, minimized because what we have to say, or what we have to express, it might not fit in the confines of what the next person might agree with. And we are judged, characterized, and forever remembered by one single action or idea, to be followed with bashing and hate. And we do it to each other, it is not one over the other, we all do this. We bitch about being judged, and with the next breath judge the next.
I still suffer from it – because we all have things that we worry about – the difference is – I am able to be expressive now, and that is part of the healing. The walking, the writing, Marley (my labrabull), all these things are my healing blocks.
We need to as a whole, stop with that. Now I am NOT SAYING KEEP SOME DUMBASS IN YOUR LIFE. What I am saying is that when you are with someone – allow them the freedom to be themselves, so that you can also be yourself. That way no one feels confined in the relationship so you can find happiness. Some people will have to go through the single route to find it like myself – because there was only his way, and I refuse for it to be that way. It should be a path drawn by both for both, so that both can enjoy this life.
Release some of those shaken soda cans – and breathe, express, create, be YOU – the ones that are left are the ones that get to see the sparkle and shine when you are done making your masterpiece. Let’s work on learning love, acceptance, and discovery. Hell you never know – maybe the things your husband/or wife enjoys outside of y’alls phones might get ya closer. Some of us will have to even figure out what we even like to do (this is me hahaha).
Till next time you beautiful brains 🙂
Do We Ever Really Find the “One”
Love like what the hell does it even mean?
We understand it when it comes to the people we are born into. Our mother’s, father’s, children. That type of love – although challenging sometimes – you typically do not have to question that love.
But what about a mate in life? Do we really ever find the “one”?
I really don’t know the answer to that question, but what I do know – is that maybe we need to stop seeking the one and become the “one”.
I will have to elaborate on that cause at this point, you are probably looking at yourself and thinking – dam girl – I am the “one”. But are you? How honest are you in your current relationship? Do you expect honesty yet not give it? Do you continue to seek a “better” lover because you “deserve” one? Let’s be real people! Are you candid with your loved ones? Do you express your feelings? Do you even know who YOU are? I mean really DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE?
Having a relationship will not validate you as a person. Self discovery is hard, but one of the most rewarding and satisfying things you could ever accomplish. Most of my life was spent dedicated to the needs of others – and now I am discovering my own needs, my own desires.
My insecurities are always heightened in a relationship. But do you know why? Because I was always the chameleon in the relationship. Bending and turning to accommodate the needs of the men I wanted to be with. Like look at me – I am perfect for you. But that is fake. Things that we do to “impress” a mate are really just a deceptive way for us chameleons to get the mate they want – then wonder why we aren’t happy. Well dumb ass we aren’t happy because we are doing what THEY want and not what I want.
And y’all know what I am talking about too. In the dating scene we all have a tendency to pretend to be something we are not to impress the date, and even modifier our normal behaviors because it is a date.
I, as well, am guilty of this, but no more. Moving forward any dates will be conducted with 100% raw and unedited me, because that is who I am – the true me – and that is the one I want the next one to fall in love with. Not the edited, and cleaned version.
I found true love.
True, unconditional love.
Within myself. 
Rusty Pelican 💯 Tampa Florida Dinner Review
So I had the pleasure of dining in at this beautiful restaurant in Tampa.
I will have to say, I normally do not go out. Like I am a single woman who runs on a very tight budget. I am very happy to have been a quest at this very nice palace of plentiful of palate pleasentries 💯💯
First off the decor is amazing and very well thought through.

The bar, not a huge one but again very eye appealing. The way that the sun comes in and highlights sections, it’s just beautiful 💯😎
I had the Pineapple Express and let me tell you, it was delish and I will be back for some more of those 💕💯

And the most important part 🤔 the FOOD hahahaha
I had the seared halibut that was nested in a pesto rosso cream, and purple mashed potatoes, with a brown butter caper sauce.
Now listen y’all, I don’t normally stray from 🐔 for a lot of reasons. Primarily because fish is so rarely cooked correctly.
I was glad I took a chance with this masterpiece. I highly highly recommend. It has amazing flavor with a kick of spice that leaves you wanting more.

All in all, I highly recommend.
Especially for people who are in the love game. While I was there for food, men this is where you should be taking your dates.
Classy and sassy ✓
Momma gives it 5 out of 5 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Life Update I’m fkng Tired hahahaha😎💯😎💯😎😂
How The Fashion Industry has Fat People Fkd Up
I have to honestly say – that over the past two years – I have really kind of started paying attention to the fashion industry. I mean I always wanted to look good, but being fat my entire life, the options available to women were pretty much drab and outdated.
I don’t know if I am going through some type of midlife crisis to where I am more concerned now than I have ever been with clothes, and probably because of the fact that I have been introduced to Torrid.
I would like to say first and foremost – this isn’t a sponsored ad, so this by no means is a boost Torrid post – this is just my own personal experience.
I look back through pictures – pre-Torrid, and I just look at myself like meh – yea – outfits LAME.
But really what options did we have? And then furthermore – I feel some type of way with companies in which their size 0-12 look fashionable and flirty – then you get to size 14-28 and it looks like we went back to 1990.
And do you know how crushing it is to walk into a store, and the only option you have is last winter, and winter circa 1965? I mean honestly people – fat people like colors, shapes, patterns, different. This is partly why I never enjoyed shopping. Not only was I dealing with self-image issues – but it is crushing when you see an absolutely adorable pop pink dress – but it is only available in misses. Your options are black, brown and grey. Exclusion – cause being fat means you don’t care about yourself – so here ya go – have you some left over last year lame ass outfit.
Like why just because I am fat, can I not also get that adorable dress in my size, with the curves adjusted for a woman with a rack, and ass, and stomach included for free? Like why do I have to look like an oompa loompa (no offense Willy) Monday thru Sunday? And Jesus please someone make some thongs that actually fit over this ass. I mean yea – I can find sizes that go around the waist – but I need something with some curve for the center string, so I am not digging the string out 900 times an hour. And don’t come at with me – get a bigger size – cause I have done that too, and you know what happens, I am pulling up two strings, and pulling out 1. Like someone help that situation.
Now I will have to say once I found Torrid, I realized there was someone who got us. I hope to see the trend continue throughout the industry.
Just because we are fat – does not mean we don’t want to look good.
I want to slay Monday Thru Sunday.
Thanks to Torrid though – I am looking Hella cute today 🙂


