Yesterday was a pretty tough day for me. Mainly because of some family issues that rose up, then of course the kick back of negativity yesterday in regards to my music, and my choice in music. A racially motivated comment, followed by a religiously motivated comment, followed by a Youtuber that had formed his own opinion and quite frankly simply wanted to let me know that I can’t rap. Now I will say that most people have been supportive of my music, but yesterday in particular I got hit back to back with negativity. Now I am a strong woman – so the negative stuff – it’s really just their thoughts and opinions, and by no means do I let these comments or feedback get me down. I analyze the data at hand. I review it – and that is at the point that I am at now. If the data is not working – then some recalculating is in order.
Now I am not going to stop making music for anyone, but maybe I should stop sharing it. A lot of people that are new – and listen – they don’t get the back story. The story that starts with me on August 23, 2018 with my first talk through poetry video. In two months, I have over 4k views on Youtube, and 1k on Soundcloud, and also received Singer Spotlight for Bandlab in November.
But let’s be honest – my views are so high because I push my music. No, I don’t send it to people, I post it – and a lot as well.
I am getting hit from all different avenues with the negative stuff. An old white male – stuck in the 20’s with his “just because you date black people doesn’t mean you’re a rapper” – which is like WTF – first off – I am not dating anyone, and furthermore; I am not only color – blind – but I fall in love with souls. I have no gender or race preference. If you treat me with love – I treat you with love.
What makes a person a person, is most definitely not on the outside. Your thoughts, your emotions, and your heart – they are all internal. What you look like on the outside has no bearing or affect on what kind of human being you are.
Finding my voice has been amazing – but the negativity – although anticipated – really does make you question what you are doing. I guess this is that cross roads path a lot of singers talk about.
I know my music is different, and raw – unedited (kind of the point) but maybe it is so different – that maybe it isn’t for the world. Maybe this music should only be for me.
Till next time…….
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