I feel some type of way…..

So Greg and I dropped two tracks together this month.

They were both entered into Bandlab’s #heroes #contest for this month. I am in shock that both of them, as of right now, are sitting in the #top40

The other thing that blows my mind, my last release – has surpassed my the first one released this month….

It’s the #lovesong to Eminem.  Most know that I believe music is healing, mainly because at my darkest times, his music helped my stay strong, helped me become not afraid.

Tell me what you think?

Which one do you prefer?

The one to Eminem or the one about Greg, my boyfriend?

https://www.bandlab.com/momma_rapper/project1-2013fd88-ced1?revId=70a9d8c5-1ed7-e911-b5e9-28187831ee7a

https://www.bandlab.com/momma_rapper/ass-as-a-nation-b68c40ed?revId=efd4ec65-e8cc-e911-bcd0-2818789a0161

In shock – wrote another man a love song – when my boyfriend heard it – he was in awe….. Blog Post 09/18/2019

 

So Greg and I entered a few contests on Bandlab – the app we use to create our music.  For those that don’t know- Greg is a bassist – which was not something I knew about him until after we started dating.  We are coming up on our 6 month anniversary – and it has been fantastic!!!!

Together we have dropped 4 tracks.

This last one though – “That’s Some Shady Shit” is climbing up the charts on Bandlab!!!  We have two entries – the only two songs I have done this month, and one is sitting at #40 and the newest one – ALREADY AT #70.

I have a feeling this last one might surpass my other one.  Even if we don’t win the contest – the fact that I even made it in the #top100 at all is amazingballs – then making it into the #top50 – even more amazingballs

Our latest track – my love song to another man!!  That man just happens to be Eminem hahahahaa – yea – Momma a stan!! And what?  hahahaha

Sitting at #70 !!!!

 

I also wrote a love song to Greg:

Currently sitting at #40 !!!!

 

I think we sound amazing together.  His beat – my heart – together we make that Pulse beat!!!!

 

Our other releases:

BLOG POST 09/17/2019 Dam these changes stacking up, but I’m completely excited for this new life.

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You know I’m sitting here sharing my music, in a new home, with a new boyfriend, in a new city that is in a new state with a new car – and I’m just like wow, changes for real.

I think back to where I was a year ago.  Mentally, emotionally…  Hell let’s take that back even further – let’s go 5, but let us dare not go back more than 10 – those pastures are paved in paths of pain.

Talk about changes.  I can’t describe to someone how emotionally restricted I have felt over most of my life.

Some other things have been going on as well.  A lot of self-evaluation – a lot of self-love.  I mean when we strip ourselves down to only yourself – and there is  no one around to feed you negativity – you start feeding yourself, little by little, bit size snacksies of positive encouragement.

Like, legit, I look in the mirror everrrydddaaayyy – and tell myself I am beautiful, I am a bad bitch, I have the power to allow fuckers to fuck with me, retain power for thyself bitccchhhh… Now take that fine ass to work.  hahahahaha – (legit tho)

A few years ago – I wouldn’t even look in the mirror – and now I go live, share music, post videos, give no fucks what kind of negative bullshit comes out someone’s mouth.

Changes….

I stripped myself down to nothing but me, and my thoughts, and you know what I realized?

I’m pretty fucking awesome – and I deserve to be loved ❤ and so do you, even if that someone yourself till you find someone who can top that kind of love (and yea they out there, Gregory, hey babbbyyy)

 

FYI

If no one has told you today,

You are beautiful, strong, and courageous..

All the pain is just making those wings super strong for when it’s time to soar!!!

If they ain’t treating you right – tell em to get the fuck gone.  You owe no – one nothing in this life.  You DO NOT have to subject yourself to pain just so they can be loved.

LOVE YOURSELF

DEMAND RESPECT

LIVE IN PEACE.