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Starbucks Therapy

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Today is a rough day – but you know what? That is okay – not every day is going to be rainbows and butterflies.

So what does today call for – some perky love from Starbucks. I had me a gift card, and the wonderful young man at the Fowler location whipped up some good good.

While he has no idea what he did for me – there is a reason why we call some foods, comfort food.

I simply asked the man to make me something sugar free, that is comforting – and he made it happen.

To the gentleman at that location – high five buddy – you did a great job.

Sometimes we don’t know what people are going through – he didn’t know what I was going through – he didn’t have to. He paid attention to what I needed and he delivered. And I am thankful for that. I got back to work – feeling much better.

He doesn’t know how much that little cup of joe meant to me – but it calmed down my nerves, so that I could have me a nice attitude adjustment.

Thanks Starbucks.

Post Coffee Attitude

Jessica M Wilkes – No Part Time Men 😏 I Need Too Much Attention😂🤗 (original).mp3 – SoundCloud

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And I mean this every fiber in my soul.

Nothing irritates me more than when a man comes along and awakens a love, but isn’t available. Not in any capacity. I need attention beyond the scope of the bedroom. 🤔

And not just physically, emotionally, mentally.

We all have busy schedules, and I’m one of the worse 🤔 but the difference is I am actually available, therefore attention can be given to the right one.

But I won’t settle for the wrong one ever again 😘😘

Broke and Broken

You know I think the most disappointing thing in life, is when you have friendships that fail because of greed.

Now I openly discuss that I am broke, and once broken. We are all just trying to do the very best in making it in life.

I had someone who befriended me, and boosted me up, and of course, I took the bait. Really thinking this person thought I had some talent. Wow someone who actually believed in me, someone who I really thought was feeling what I was saying.

And then after a few days – I get hit with the hook.

Look. I am happy with my life. I am just being me. Offering someone “studio time” is great – but then days later – you hit them with “yea it’s only $750.00” like really?

I know we are all just trying to make money – but don’t fake it to make it in this life.

It is irritating because if you actually listen to the lyrics in my songs – you will hear the struggle, and nothing is more like wow – you never listened to any of my shit.

Broke, Broken and Bitchy

I feel the way I do because I have been struggling my entire life, and yea maybe in some kind of crazy way, maybe the “extra” work I am putting into being myself, eventually turns profit, but when I say I’m broke, like I mean it.

It is hard making it out here – and like what kind of “friend” are you – if you aren’t paying attention to ANYTHING they have said.

I make poor look pretty – but like the struggle is real out there for families.

Don’t fake being friends with someone just to sell them shit.

Confidence Builder

I’m half my size and my confidence is feeling a little Rocky right now.

I am not even gonna pretend like this excess skin isn’t creating a slight self image complex. I know this is from all my bad habits followed with hard work and determination; however there is still this little voice that sometimes says, ” like wow this isn’t fair”

I hit my biggest milestone and almost immediately after, starting really noticing the skin.

I will overcome these feelings. The pants that my friend gave me work for now, at least with the legs. So at least I’m able to still hit the pavement 😏 without being in pain 😘