The most amazing thing happened last night and as I sit at home, adrenaline still pumping hard, even 24 hours later, I can say for $25.00 I had a dream come true. Now did I ever think in a million years I would I ever be qualified to be in a booth, hell no, not sure I still am, but I just don’t give a dam anymore cause quite honestly, why not just follow your dreams? Why, because someone else told you, that you couldn’t? The f they knew anyways? They know how ur blood pumps through your veins? Or how ur heart skips a beat when you hear your own voice, your own words, your life, your thought and your feelings into something that feels good to me? I might be looking like a fool but I’m having fun and so is my family so I gives no fks π€
And let me tell you, it was no easy ride getting there. For one, the only transportation my family has is a scooter. Beep beep bitches π my family used to consist of 3 but that number has since doubled π
While these extra children are not blood they are most definitely family.
While I can offer a lot, I’m only one person, I can always offer love and acceptance. If my kid loves them, I love them π
So how does a family of 6 get to a studio? Well we do what we doπ it’s how we run shit around hereπΆ we just get it done. 2 on scooter 4 on bus. ππ We got babies on the hip π
We roll into the studio π the first 2 then the other 4.
I just knew this guy had no idea what he was about to encounter π
And I brought no beat πΆπ
Cause that’s not what I do π
I’m different y’all π€ I admit that in everything I do.
The look on his face to when he asks for the beat and I was like no, I just am here to record my voice.
Ha, listen I admit I don’t what I’m doing but listen I do the shit ass backwards, but I’m still getting it done and like I’m still learning, but the way I do it, works for me ππ So Elsa that shit and let it go. π We all do things better when we do them on our own terms. π’π
So I lay down the lyrics. My crew of 5 sitting with the engineer and me in the booth. An Eminem video playing in my head. I really don’t care if the song goes anywhere. I’m proud of how my first time went and we had fun π
My hands were sweating, my knees shaking. Such a little thing to one person, means the world to the next so judge me will u not?
Now listen π I have insecurities. I often stumble up when I’m speaking. Fear of rejection, lack of confidence, the combo introvert, God please don’t let me let my child down, in front of these people, nerves π on edge anxiety. The remains of emotional abuse and lack of self love. Something I’m working on and coping with, clearly π
The most important thing last night, was that smile on my child’s face.
That was priceless .
Something I hope we can do again, her voice is beautiful.
I can’t wait to release this track.
A big thank you to AMG Tampa.
It was a pleasure working with you guys, and I hope again in the future. ππ
“Prodigy” coming soon. A big shout out to Clint Mitchell with The Shoals.
He has welcomed this with open arms and has built a beat, did some fancy stuff to the vocals and is preparing a masterpiece of Momma Rapper crazy π’π Thank you. You are a huge blessing.
And y’all π£ he is doing it out of the kindness of his heart, thousands of miles away ππ #blessings
Thank you for believing in my crazy wild different noise πππ